omg i havnt wrote in ages.
been really busy these past couple of months.
im just going to keep it simple, my mom and dad are on the verge of kicking me out of the house and im on the verge of been kicked out of school
its all really complicated.
ok so all my life iv been kept under my dads wing. iv always done what my perents told me to do. i was always in on time (most of the time ok so i came in drunk but thats not the point) i had to be in by 10pm, when all my friends had to be in later. and these past few months iv just been like what the hell, this is my life and im going to live it how i want to. ok so iv taking it a stop too far, it just started off by me sneeking out when my mom and dad was in bed, then it was sneeking of for the weekend and not telling my mom and dad where i was (i was camping wth friends) then it go to the point where i would be 2 hours late in or not come home at all, then i just decided that i couldnt be botherd with school and hardly not go and when i did id get into loads of trouble.
but tbh its been these best few months of my life. i have had so much fun. iv just let my hair down and have done what i wanted to do but i guess iv taken it a step too far and im realizing that now. i mean i havent had a bad life, my mom and dad have always done the best they can for me. and iv realized im hurting them because my 2 brothers, they did what im doing and they havnt turned out too good.
and with all this going on, im in the most important year of my education, the last year of highschool, you know with all the exams and coursework and stuff.
but i might have a plan because im having so much fun with my friends im just going to keep the partying and stuff for the weekend. and the coursework and studying ill do all that throu the week, then i will have time to study and get work finished (im behind in every class) ok so im going to leave my social life for the weekends. im going to put everything right at school + at home.
+ the diet, well i did loose about a 14lbs buttttt iv been comfort eating these past few weeks and iv put it all back on if not more. yeah so that sucks but im going to try and sort that out too.
one step and a time thou because dieting is the last thing in my mind right now.